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The door closed softly amidst drunken laughter and careless abandon.
Fingers blurred together as they fumbled for buttons in between hungry, wet, sloppy kisses that meant nothing and everything.
A few short, awkward and tumbling steps led to the bed, where rumpled sheets waited like a laundry closet for the people that
were sure to come. The buttons became a mess of color, and a disturbing noise signified the ripping of cotton and set off
more drunken squeals and a drunken declaration.
"I love a wil' man. You make me wanna get hot wit you baaaaaby..."
the watercolor child's painting that seemed to be swirling around and around, his finger managed to find her lips.
There was more laughter, more reckless abandon as her fingers found his pants and worked the zipper until
the leather slid from him. Her skirt joined the pants on the floor only moments later, and she tumbled out of her stockings
clumsily, ripping his shirt in the process. No need for buttons. He reached behind her as she crawled onto him and deftly
unhooked her bra, revealing two peaks of pleasure on which he could feast for the night. Ah, there they were. With a sigh,
he buried his face in the valley between them.
Temptation, passion, and lust. Lust most of all. As his tongue snaked
out to draw a small trail between her breasts, his heart raced with the anticipation of what was to come. He was drunk, obviously,
but he knew the game well enough. Her moan of pleasure was proof of that. Her head fell back and he opened his eyes long enough
to smirk at her before appreciatively looking over the body in front of him.
"Beautiful," he mumbled to her, but more
to himself. Weren't they all? Heat rose as he tentatively reached out and nipped one rosy bud gently with his teeth.
sharp intake of breath was all the encouragement he needed before descending in his full-fledged attack on her left breast.
He was licking, biting, teasing like never before, his lips, teeth and tongue working overtime to ease her into the depths
of ecstasy. After all, the more pleasure he brought, the more he was sure to receive later.
In the midst of his teasing,
her cold hands found his boxers and slid the waistband slowly down his legs until his throbbing erection was exposed. Just
as his tongue was swirling around her nipple, her fingers wrapped around his member, and he growled in surprise. She was forward.
liked the forward women. Less work to do.
He released her breast and reached a hand up to fondle her womanhood, pleased
when he found her dripping. Obviously something was going well. His tongue slid up her chest to the nape of her neck, where
he began sucking gently, then more aggressively. She moaned again, and he grazed her bud with the pad of his index finger.
She trembled beneath him, and he smiled victoriously. He was in control.
"Gooood fucking...oooooh, Carter, do tha again..."
he traced a path along her abdomen, but his addled head suddenly became clearer.
Dammit, Alli used to call me
He slid a hand around her waist and yanked her roughly against his chest until he could feel her nipples
hardening against his skin.
He'd be lying to say that he hadn't thought about Alli, but he would've also been lying
had he said that he was often sober enough to process any decent thoughts about her. He knew from Amanda's scathing lecture
after the hospital incident that she was talking to the girls again, and AJ had managed his own share of biting remarks during
practice. He told himself repeatedly that he didn't care until it hurt too much to lie...and then he drank. Drank until every
woman in the club looked beautiful and every sensible thought was cast to the wind. After all, he was just having fun. He
wasn't supposed to be concerned.
His teeth gently grasped her earlobe and tugged once, twice, three times until she
was moaning in his ear. The sound was erotic, and he pressed his hips against her thigh to show her how much he appreciated
her efforts of seduction.
Of course, Amanda had said that Alli had cried when Kristin had called to tell her about
Her wandering fingers pinched the tip of his throbbing member, and delicious pain shot burning rivers
up and down his body. He traced the outline of her ear with his tongue, and she raked her nails along his tip. He trembled
beneath her, and his lips rose to meet hers in a steamy kiss while their hands continued to explore.
Why did it bother
him so much that Alli had cried over him? After all, like Amanda said, it hadn't been the first time that he'd made his best
friend cry. Of course, that bothered him too.
He released her mouth long enough to breathe, and she brought her hands
up to rake her nails across his chest, leaving a trail of chill bumps in her wake. She slid her hands back up towards his
biceps until she was holding him down on the bed, and her lips crashed into his again.
His vision was blurred in the
heat of the moment, but his thoughts were racing. If he had made Alli cry before, she hadn't ever mentioned it. Instead, she
had kept it from him, which angered him in the slightest. They were supposed to trust each other. Of course, maybe she had
thought she could trust him. Maybe he'd let her down.
His tongue pushed against her lips until they opened, allowing
him access to her mouth as he struggled against her hold. She bit down gently on his lower lip, and his hips bucked into her.
He still couldn't forget the pain in Alli's eyes when she'd
looked at him last.
Finally furious at having been held down, he broke free of her grip and flipped her over onto the
bed, winking at her before gliding down her body with his tongue, using his talented fingers to knead her breasts into swollen
mountains of desire. He dipped his tongue in her navel, arching an eyebrow in satisfaction when she gasped in surprise.
really, really hated the fact that Alli's face was still in his head.
He closed his eyes and continued to tease her
navel with his tongue while his hands found her hips and held them gently in place. When he was satisfied with the attention
paid to her abdomen, he moved lower and took a deep breath, memorizing the wet womanhood that lay waiting for him beneath
a bed of rose-colored curls.
Why had it been so easy for Alli to leave without any promise of returning? She was supposed
to care about him. In fact, he had his days where he wondered if she was the only one who still did.
He descended down upon her, and his tongue flicked across her
folds, successfully parting her lips and reveling her entrance. He closed his eyes again and his tongue darted inside as his
lips closed over her folds.
And then there were the days where he wondered if even Alli could still find it in her
heart to care about him. He didn't want to believe that he'd hurt her or that he was at fault, but Amanda's words were slowly
starting to take effect.
He sucked gently as his tongue continued to massage her most tender area, releasing his hold
on her hips when she began to react to his prodding. Her hips bucked into him, and he found a slow rhythm with which to tease
her. When her juices met his tongue, he began to massage more quickly, eliciting a moan from his object of lust. His new victim.
Another night would bring another victim.
Damn Amanda. Hell, damn all women.
He flicked his tongue
across her bud, and her body rocked with her first orgasm. He kissed her curls gently before releasing her, moving back up
along her beautiful body until his lips met hers in another tangle of passion.
Amanda had said that there was no way
he could claim to care for Alli by sleeping around and drinking when she was in such an emotionally damaging situation. He
had replied that maybe he didn't really care about Alli.
She broke the kiss to smile sexily at him and her fingers
found his throbbing member again. He let out a shaky breath at her touch and managed a hopeful but endearing half-smile.
turn," she purred. "Lie down."
It wasn't until she gave him a firm, commanding squeeze that he hissed a breath between
his teeth and obeyed. When she rolled over and began to crawl on top of him, the preying, lustful look in her eyes had to
have been the sexiest thing he'd ever seen. But, then again, they were all sexy.
It didn't matter. He'd lied before
and Amanda had certainly been wrong before. He didn't want to care about Alli because of her indifferent attitude towards
him, but he had a feeling that she was just as affected by the abrupt ending to their friendship as he had been. Maybe he
just wanted closure.
She loomed over him, gracefully leaning down to trace the line of his collarbone with her tongue.
When she arrived back at his neck, she trailed over his Adam's apple, which bobbed as he swallowed forcefully and tried to
remain calm. She smiled seductively down at him and leaned into his neck, sucking gently at his Adam's apple while her the
nails on her right hand grazed up and down his bicep. He had to grip the bed sheets to keep from crying out.
didn't want closure with Alli. He'd be lying through his teeth if he told her that he was glad for the end of their friendship.
Didn't she know that he still needed someone to believe in him? The others had already given up.
"Like that?" she slurred,
her hot breath lingering on his dampened neck. He swallowed again and managed to nod, worried about what might escape if he
loosed his grip on his bottom lip. His teeth sank more harshly onto his skin, and he closed his eyes when he felt her blowing
gently along her tongue's more recent path across his chest. His nipples hardened beneath the burst of cold air.
wanted to smile at the many times that Alli had had encouraging words amidst the endless sarcasm.
he sucked in a breath as the gentle breeze found the tip of his arousal. A string of obscenities came to mind, but were caught
in his throat with a primal growl. His eyes were squeezed tightly shut, and his breathing became more shallow when the tip
of her tongue tentatively found the tip of his growing erection. He was pleasantly surprised that he was lasting so long,
but the pleasure she evoked was pure torture.
Alli had always liked to joke about his affinity for pain. He'd certainly
caused himself enough of it by letting her walk out that door without another word to convince her to come back. Not that
he had the words. Truth to tell, he didn't really deserve her, and he knew it.
Her tongue began swirling around his
tip gently at first, then more assertively until she was sliding up his shaft. Her lips closed around him just before she
bared her teeth, raking them against the tender skin as she traveled his length. The touch left him wanting more, and she
complied as her tongue began to explore his growing excitement again.
Knowing, of course, didn't make it hurt any less.
Alli had always been his best friend. Her absence was still surreal, even though he felt it on so many levels that he couldn't
even begin to acknowledge how much she meant.
Suddenly, she slid up his length and deep-throated him. She began moving
up and down his length in long, even strokes, using her tongue to tease him while the warmth of her mouth enticed him. Against
his own will, his fingers buried in her reddish curls, and he closed his eyes again, enveloping himself in darkness while
she dragged him into his own ecstasy. She began to pump faster until his entire length was throbbing for release. With one
final thrust, he shoved her head into his hips and exploded into her mouth as stars danced in the darkness before him.
he ought to call Alli, just to try and convince her to start caring about him again. He wanted someone to believe in him.
he recovered from the tremble of his orgasm, his voice was husky as he spoke to her and opened his glassy eyes to look at
her in appreciation.
"I wanna be in you now," he slurred, somewhat surprised at the alcohol's effect on his speech.
He was still drunk and sedated by lust, but his thoughts ran more clearly than they had in weeks. He slid his hands out of
her hair and onto her shoulders, pulling her up for another searing kiss until their arms were wrapped around each other as
they tried to get as close as physically possible. She began teasing him again, and he felt his erection beginning to grow
again against her thigh.
He felt tears prick the back of his eyes when he realized that, despite the hateful way he'd
treated her in his quest for fun, Alli had always believed in him.
He reached over clumsily and grabbed a square-shaped
silver package from the drawer of the bedside table. He tore open the foil package with shaky fingers and pulled the condom
free, but her cold hand found his, and he looked up at her with eyes full of questions.
"Lemme," she said thickly,
taking the lubricated item and raking her nails along him again before sheathing him properly. He guided her to lie on the
bed and positioned himself above her with a lustful gaze as the scenery around him blurred at the edges. With a deep breath
and a tiny gasp of anticipation, he slid into her, eliciting a moan of his name from the woman beneath him.
knows my name, but I don't know hers, he realized vaguely. The thought reminded him of something Amanda had said earlier.
"Alli knows you so well, Nick, but you don't really know her anymore. Either you don't know her, or you're not friend
enough to care about who she's become. Did it ever occur to you that she has a life outside of you? She has a father. She
supports you, but you won't take five minutes to call and support her."
He buried himself as far as he could go
before sliding out again with an agonizingly slow speed. She whimpered beneath him, begging for more, but he continued to
ease in and out almost completely, taking the time to watch the expressions on her face so that he wouldn't acknowledge how
much he was tormenting himself as well. When she reached behind and grabbed his backside, slamming him into her, his eyes
widened in surprise and pleasure. He began to increase the force of his thrusts, bringing his hands to rest on her two breasts,
which he had suddenly acquired a new appreciation for. He smiled a sexy grin when he felt her chest rising and falling with
every shallow breath. Her breathing grew labored as he increased his pace ever so slightly.
He wanted to be a good
friend to Alli, but he wasn't ready to sacrifice the power he'd gained or the strength he'd acquired with his newfound "tough
kid" attitude. The Boys were most certainly exasperated, but the women had never been so willing and the booze had never been
so easy to consume. He had wisely chosen to ignore the guilt until Alli arrived, at which point he couldn't help but think
that maybe his guilt had arrived in the form of Alli. Of course, maybe she had been there to bring him back down from the
cloud of drugs and drinking and sex and parties until dawn. Beneath it all, Alli was still the same person he had befriended
years before, and he reveled in the normalcy that she brought to his normally chaotic life.
Even in the heat of the
moment, even as he slammed into her walls with excruciating, delicious pain and pleasure, she meant nothing. Even as he twirled
her hardened nipples between his thumbs and forefingers, he couldn't remember her name or how he'd met her. And, even as her
eyes rolled back in her head and her body shook violently with the force of one orgasm after another, even as he exploded
inside the confining rubber tube, the lust meant nothing to him. Even as she cried out his name in pure ecstasy, Alli's name
ran though his mind.
Maybe it hadn't been fair of him to change so willingly, to abandon the man that his best friend
knew and believed in. Maybe it hadn't been fair of him to snatch normalcy away from her when she still provided for him day
after day. Maybe he did owe her more than just an apology.
His own eyes fell closed as his body rocked with the force
of his own orgasm, every limb trembling in an erotic dance of lost control and dissipating passion.
He just needed
to hear Alli's voice, just needed to know that she was still there for him. And, maybe it wouldn't hurt to let her know that
he wanted to be there for her too, jerk or not.
He fell back against the dampened sheets, exhausted in the aftermath
of sex and candy. He pulled her close to him and wrapped his arms around her, but she was nothing more than a warm body. She
whispered to him in the dark, but he couldn't hear her. He didn't really care what she was saying anyway. For the evening,
she had satisfied his addiction, aided him in his attempt at self-destruction. His eyes fluttered closed as his head hit the
pillow, and he sighed heavily as a single, solitary tear escaped out of the corner of his eye and slid onto the cotton.
vowed to call Alli the next morning. First, though, he'd have to get his victim out of his bed. He'd send her home, and then
he'd call the one that mattered. If she didn't want to talk, he'd find another victim and wait another day.
she had been on his mind all evening.